Reflecting ... On What Might Have Been
I wonder what would have happened to me?
POSTED BY VIVIENNE DOCKERTY ON 28/09/2015 @ 8:00AM
I was recently given a date by the publisher for my new historical fiction book Beggarman's Cottage. As I was looking over the copy edit, I suddenly realised it was a very significant date ...
If I had stayed married to my first husband, I would have been married to him for 50 years!
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50 years! The mind boggles. I began to wonder if that was why I had written Beggarman's Cottage and looking back I think that is why I had. Psychologically, I must have wondered what would have happened to me had I stayed with him.
It was on the cards that I was either going to sink deeper and deeper into depression or pull myself up by the bootstraps, as my ancestor Maggie had done.
"But just suppose I had chosen to stay and completely disappeared under my husband's thumb?"
Life would have been unpleasant, living on the twelfth floor of a high rise block of flats, being dominated by a man with five-star tastes on a two-star income and a jealous mother-in-law. Choosing to buy a packet of fags or a tin of beans with money to last until payday and hiding behind the sofa when the tally woman called.
Strangely enough, my husband did emigrate. Not with me, I hasten to add, but with a new wife and baby, his future path had been chosen for him anyway. Even the illness the character had in my book (I had written that he became affected by asbestos) did happen, though in real life he got cancer and, fortunately, it was treated and it went away.
I knew I would have left him eventually. Life as a £10 Pom in Adelaide wouldn't have suited me in the long run. Stuck in a migrant's hostel, far away from friends and family, relying on an abusive husband for every penny wouldn't have done for me.
"I'm grateful that the experience of 50 years ago has not been wasted. I have never let myself rely on a husband for a penny piece since then!"
Beggarman's Cottage is due out in February and is a gripping read as usual, for those who have enjoyed my fictional tales so far.
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Until next time ...
Since arriving back in the U.K I have enjoyed meeting lots of people at the Author Talks and book signing events that I have been invited to. It has been great connecting with my roots again and listening to other people's stories whilst I have been doing research for my next book.
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