Innocence Lost: A Life Changing Decision
And I'm still here to tell the tale ...
POSTED BY VIVIENNE DOCKERTY ON 23/11/2015 @ 8:00AM
46 years ago, a young woman with a toddler in tow stood on the doorstep of a terraced house in a chilly northern mill town. Little did the occupant know that after she had answered the door, her family's life would be changed forevermore ...
With my innocence lost, I made a life changing decision
She stared with suspicion at her visitor, then suddenly recognising the face that she had known from a few years before, remembered her manners and invited her visitor in.
"He's not here, he's at university" she informed the young woman, who was sitting looking rather nervous on the sofa, with her child placed beside her.
"Anyroad, who does the bairn belong to? It isn't our Andy's, is it?" The young woman sighed. "No, not Andy's. How is he? Enjoying university?" she asked. "Yes, he is" was the short, sharp reply.
The young woman could see that this line of questioning wasn't welcome, as Andy's grandma was standing with her hands on her hips, looking down on her grimly.
Admitting defeat in front of the family's Matriarch, she said "I've written him a note. Would you see that he gets it from me?" and started for the door. "Aye, I'll do that. Do you want me to make you a cup of tea? I've got some lemonade for the young un' somewhere?"
Grandma always had good manners. "No, you're alright." The woman was in a hurry to get away from the hostile atmosphere. "Can we just use your toilet and then we'll be off to catch the train? One's due at half past the hour."
"This is the scene that stays in my mind when I reflect on that life changing decision which I made all those years ago!"
Faced with the thought of playing the role of a dutiful wife, after making the biggest mistake of my tender eighteen years and tying myself to an uncaring man, with little regard for anyone but himself, for the next forty years.
I knew I couldn't do it and in my moments of reason, when I realised that I had married him to get away from my domineering father, exchanging him for a controlling man instead, my mind would always fly to Andy, who had treated me with kindness and respect.
What a fool I'd been! I'd let him go. In a fit of pique, I had told him to clear off and go to his precious university. I wanted dancing, trips to the pictures, meals out and lots of excitement, not sitting at home, watching the telly each night and waiting for Andy to visit me when he had the time.
My marriage to a handsome man, with a great chat up line and money jingling in his pocket, lasted only a couple of years and produced a grandchild for my parents.
This is my story! It's one which goes to show that in desperate situations, the right decisions can bring about genuine happiness in your life.
The moral of this story is never to put up with a situation if you are able to change it. Read my book called Innocence Lost and you can find out how this all came about.
Until next time ...
More about Vivienne Dockerty ...
Since arriving back in the U.K I have enjoyed meeting lots of people at the Author Talks and book signing events that I have been invited to. It has been great connecting with my roots again and listening to other people's stories whilst I have been doing research for my next book.
A big thank you to all the readers who have posted Amazon reviews after they have finished one of my books.